Is God aware of my inner turmoil?

Yes, absolutely and without a shadow of a doubt, Allah (God) is fully aware of every intricate detail of our inner and hidden selves, including our turmoil, thoughts, unspoken feelings, and even the silent whispers of our hearts. This truth is one of the most fundamental tenets of faith in Islam, providing profound comfort and guidance for many human psychological and spiritual challenges. The Holy Quran repeatedly and through various means emphasizes the vastness and comprehensiveness of Divine knowledge—a knowledge that encompasses not only our outward actions and words but also penetrates the depths of our intentions and inner states. One of the clearest verses in this regard is Surah Qaf, verse 16, which states: "And We have already created man and know what his soul whispers to him, and We are closer to him than [his] jugular vein." This verse explicitly declares that Allah is not only the Creator of humankind but is also fully aware of what transpires within, in the depths of one's soul and psyche – including the whispers, anxieties, fears, and worries that can be sources of turmoil. The phrase "what his soul whispers to him" (مَا تُوَسْوِسُ بِهِ نَفْسُهُ) encompasses every type of silent suggestion, hidden thought, and anxiety that circulates in a person's mind and heart. The second and highly significant point in this verse is the mention of Allah's closeness: "and We are closer to him than [his] jugular vein." This proximity signifies Allah's absolute knowledge, constant presence, and complete encompassment of human existence. It means that you do not even need to articulate your distress or utter a single word for Him to be aware of your state; He knows it even before you yourself become fully conscious of your turmoil. This awareness is an awareness accompanied by compassion and understanding, not merely that of an indifferent observer. Another verse that reinforces this truth is Surah Al-Baqarah, verse 284: "To Allah belongs whatever is in the heavens and whatever is on the earth. And whether you disclose what is in your souls or conceal it, Allah will call you to account for it. Then He forgives whom He wills and punishes whom He wills. And Allah is over all things competent." The expression "what is in your souls" (مَا فِي أَنفُسِكُمْ) includes all of a person's inner thoughts, intentions, beliefs, feelings, and decisions. This verse not only emphasizes Allah's complete awareness of our inner selves but also links this awareness to the discussion of accountability and forgiveness. This means that even inner turmoils, if stemming from sin or faulty thinking, are known to Him and subject to reckoning, yet simultaneously, it opens a door of hope: Allah forgives whom He wills. This forgiveness indicates His mercy and understanding of the human condition. Thus, turmoils, whether due to human weakness or life's pressures and trials, are manifest to Allah, and it is He who can restore tranquility. Furthermore, Surah Al-Mujadilah, verse 7, states: "Have you not considered that Allah knows what is in the heavens and what is on the earth? There is in no private conversation three but that He is the fourth of them, nor five but that He is the sixth of them – and no less than that and no more except that He is with them wherever they are. Then He will inform them of what they did on the Day of Resurrection. Indeed, Allah is Knowing of all things." This verse goes beyond awareness of verbal whispers; it emphasizes Allah's constant presence and awareness at all times and in all places, even in the most private solitude and the deepest inner thoughts. When Allah is the fourth in a private conversation of three, it signifies His absolute knowledge of everything said and unsaid, including the mental turmoils that an individual might not even be able to express. This absolute divine awareness is not merely a reason for fear or reckoning; rather, it is a tremendous source of comfort and hope for the believer. When we know that our Creator and Sustainer is aware of every detail of our pains, sufferings, hopes, and despair, the feeling of loneliness vanishes. This awareness assures us that our prayers are heard, even if they are just internal whispers. He understands our turmoil and, with His infinite knowledge, provides the best solutions. This means that whenever we feel distressed, we can turn to Him wholeheartedly, for He not only hears but also comprehends, understands, and is capable of soothing and healing. This understanding of Divine knowledge strengthens reliance (Tawakkul) and faith in His boundless power and mercy, assisting an individual in facing the most challenging moments of life. Therefore, with a confident and hopeful heart, seek help from this divine truth to find and emerge from your inner turmoil, for He is always and everywhere with you and aware of all your states.